Fear of success

The funny thing about fear is that I'm often afraid about the aspects of my life over which I have no control.
And leaving on this 6 month journey in which I hope to deepen my relationship with God is turning me into a bubbling pot of worry.
The most bizarre thing I'm worried about is that I will actually love mission work, and do well at it.
Does that sound odd? Most people WANT to be good at the activities or careers they try. I do too. But it's also scary to think that the life I've known all along was just temporary.
Forget journalism. Forget my love and desire to work in the television industry. This is what you, Lisa, are good at and meant to do with your life. That's huge!
Luckily I'm not the only who will be making this decision. My heavenly Father already has my life's path all carved out for me. He's just showing me little by little what it is.
And while I am afraid of what the next 6 months might mean for my life, I'm also incredibly inspired and excited.

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Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7 (NIV)

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.' We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
By Marianne Williamson